A very full two weeks

Wednesday November 5, 2008 Phase Two Day 198:
My 51st Birthday. The telephone aroused me out of a deep sleep. Sonnet was the first to call and wish me a happy birthday. The next voices I heard belonged to Jared and Anna singing a cheerful chorus of Happy Birthday. It was only Jami and I again walking this morning. Gaye was up working the election until 3:00, Rinez still has Ruthie and Shannon was sleeping in. After walking I had cereal then left for my hair appointment. From there I went straight to my massage appointment. It was heavenly. The phone rang during the massage and when I checked later, I saw it was from Sara. Being on baby watch, I called her right back. She was calling to wish me a happy B-day. Taunie called as I was getting dressed. On the way home, I stopped to get an estimate for car repairs where Kyle backed into my front bumper. Blake made his B-day call so I pulled over and talked awhile. By the time I got home it was noon and I needed to get to work. I stopped by Zorba’s to pick up a chicken salad and ate it at the office.

This afternoon I took down Halloween and put up Thanksgiving. I enjoy doing that. For dinner, I went to the Outback with the Walkie Talkies. We had a wonderful time. I ordered the Queensland salad. Rinez & Gaye both tried it as well. The waitress brought a hot fudge Sunday for my birthday and we all shared. The hot fudge was home made and very good. On the way home, we went to Dewar’s and I got peppermint ice cream with fudge and nuts. Yum. We talked to Taunie on the phone. Sonnet came by after Institute to walk but it was cold and she only had shorts. We decided to pass. It was a delightful birthday.

Thursday November 6, 2008 Phase Two Day 199:
Before I went to bed, I decided I was not going to go to my step class this morning. I slept in and loved it. I had a busy day, so I got up and dressed, ate cereal then headed out. Before I left however, I had a sliver of a cute little cupcake shaped cake Ann Pitts made me for my B-day so. It was sooooo good and I knew I was in trouble.

Mike needed me to pick up something for him to give to Jim for his B-day so I hit a few stored before I found what I was looking for. Also I needed to copy the Christmas program letter and get all the scripts ready to mail. At noon, I met Mom & Jim for lunch at Marie Calender’s. I had the Cabo San Lucas salad. After lunch, I went to the post office then into work. I was only there a short while before I came home. Home again I found myself heading to the cake. Oh Yea, I had some more. Sonnet called to say she had a thing at the Irish’s house this afternoon so we missed another weight lift class. Very poor week for exercise.

I really need to get busy on the blessing dress for Sara’s sister but I have just not been able to make myself do it. I decided to clean the whole back sewing area. It worked – with everything cleaned and moved out I feel like I can get started. It is funny how I like an orderly space. It is the same thing in the kitchen. I cannot work in a messy kitchen. So I began the dress and watched a new little DVD movie I picked up called Snow.

Stephen had an interview with President Russell and fixed himself a sandwich before hand. I popped a bag of popcorn and went back to my sewing.


Friday November 7, 2008 Phase Two Day 200:
Day 200!! I cannot believe I have followed this routine for 200 days. This morning we all walked then went out to IHop for Rinez’s b-day. It was a long breakfast with lots of talk and laughing. I ate a bacon, avocado the cheese omelet. I ate half of Gaye’s pancakes also. Then we ordered a coffee cake pancake with blueberries and cream to share. It was tasty. After breakfast I spent a few hours decorating the church for a wedding tomorrow. Finally home at 3:00, I had a bowl of cereal. Now Stephen is on his way home and we have decided to go out to Sizzler for date night. I think after dinner we will head back home and watch the new Hallmark movie Sonnet gave me for my B-day.

Saturday November 15, 2008 Phase Two Day 209:
Check out the date – check out the date! I have lost a week of my life! Actually, I have not lost it, I just neglected my journal for a week. So much has happened! Let me begin with last Saturday – I remember having a great day last Saturday. I worked around the house and enjoyed the luxury of a day at home. I sewed and finished the blessing dress. It is gorgeous. I amaze myself sometimes! I cannot remember what I ate but I think it was OK.

Sunday was normal. I ate cereal then went to choir practice. Stephen cam in half way through to say he just received a call from Sara saying Blake was taking her to the hospital. We make our excuses and left. What a tender day we had with the kids in Fresno. The baby finally came in the early morning hours on Monday.



It was a beautiful experience to witness and a memory we treasure.



As far as food goes, it was not so good. We ate in the hospital cafeteria. I remember pizza and ice cream. The Termeers brought candy and chips. Pretty bad. When we arrived back home early Monday morning I sent the birth email with pictures to my work friends and then went straight to bed and slept until noon. I did not meet my walking friends. Stephen met me at the plaza after work and together we shopped for the bridal shower on Thursday. We had a lovely time together. Where did we eat – oh, yea, we stopped in at the Red Robin in the plaza. I had a salad that was very good.

Tuesday was Veterans Day. There was no work for either Stephen or myself. We slept in which means I purposely missed step class. The Walkie Talkies planned to meet for lunch for Shannon’s B-day at 11:30. We ended up going to Marie Callenders. I had the Cabo San Lucas. It was yummy. I did have cornbread (bad) and then we all had a complementary piece of pie. German Chocolate – it was heavenly. I was very full and decided not to have much of anything the rest of the day, but of course there was a problem with that. First Sonnet called to say she had a conflict with weight class so I told her I was taking the holiday as an exercise holiday as well. Next, the East Hills ward was having a RS meeting that night. Gaye & Rinez had talked about it during lunch. In addition to a cute skit Gaye & Sonnet were in, they were serving homemade soup and rolls. It sounded like great fun and we teased about crashing it. It was just a joke and I had no real plans to attend. I was still very full from the big birthday lunch when evening came - then the phone rang. Rinez called to say she would pick me up if I wanted to go. I had mixed emotions. I knew I would enjoy the meeting, fellowship and food, but I was still full and not looking forward to the eating I knew I would not resist. The social side of me won out. Rinez picked me up and we did enjoy a delightful evening. The down side was that I ate excessively and was uncomfortable all night. It is amazing to me how I will make poor choices with full knowledge of unpleasant consequences! How adolescent is that! I cannot say another thing about teenagers that make sinful choices based on momentary lust or cravings – am I not doing the same thing when I over indulge with food for momentary pleasure?

Wednesday I walked with friends. I was so full from yesterday, I did not eat the next morning until I met my friends at work and we went out to a pre-arranged B-day lunch for Wanda & I. Let me tell you the B-day season this year is marathon. I had a delicious steak salad at the Sugar Mill. I was happy to find such a good salad at a restaurant so close to the office. It came with garlic toast – that was bad because I ate it. I could not even eat all of the salad because of starting out feeling full from the previous night. Half of it really filled me up. The funny thing about me is that I am a dessert girl. I can be full yet still like something sweet to top off a meal. We did not order dessert. Back at the work, I had a cinnamon roll in the break room and snacked on some candy from Julie’s office. See how loose I have gotten. I cannot say the last time I had any candy from the candy dishes around the office. My problem is that once I begin eating very caviler I escalate quickly past all reason.

Thankfully, I had an appointment at 1:30 with a housekeeper so I needed to get home. She was wonderful. We worked together from 1:30 until 6:00. I have all my windows and glass washed inside and out, I have the cabinets and appliances wiped down. I have the floors scrubbed, the trees cleaned. Everything is dusted and sparkling. It feels so good. Tomorrow is the Bridal Bunco shower for Karrie and I feel much better knowing I have a clean house. I stayed up late decorating and getting things ready for tomorrow. I don’t remember eating that night.

Thursday was Bridal Bunco. What a fun day.




Because of the heavy cleaning yesterday and all my puttering around the house decorating so late, I was tired and too pooped to get up for step class. Before I fell into bed, I told Stephen I was agonizing about not going. This was a dilemma because Jami said she went Tuesday and was surprised not to see me. I knew she would be expecting me tomorrow. I told Stephen I was not only physically tired but somewhat tired out with all the exercising I am doing for other people. I walk for me, I like to swim for me however I have committed to take my Mom swimming two mornings a week so now what was pop-in swimming when I wanted to, has become a routine for my Mom. I am actually happy to do this as I know it is good for her and I enjoy our time together however, it is a time commitment for me. Another thing is the weight lift classes Tuesday & Thursday afternoons. I go to the classes to support Sonnet. I would probably just attend one on our side of town early in the morning but, I go across town in the late afternoon to meet when Sonnet can attend. It defiantly cuts into my evenings. Then on Wednesday nights I have to stay up to go walking at 9:00 with Sonnet after Institute. The thought of having to be at step class for Jami was just too much. I have to feel like I can go when I want and not feel like I have to carry one more person. All these things are good and I enjoy them. It is just that I feel more scheduled than I want to be. But then again I think - what am I here for if not to be of help to others so just quit the complaining and be happy! Sorry, momentary pity party - OK, I am better now.

Stephen is much more level headed than I am. He is a man for one thing, which I appreciate at times like these. He can be very practical and just say, “For Pete’s sake, if you are tired don’t go.” I did not go. It felt great to sleep in a bit then get up refreshed for the big day ahead. I was pretty ready for the Shower but like anything, there are things that need to done last minute. I went into the office for a while then back home. I will say the evening was something special. The house was wedding wonderland from the flower and bows draped banister to the tool tied chairs surrounding china set tables. I know I am crazy but I so enjoy fashioning something lovely. As Rinez quoted Heidi Pheffer as saying, “It pleases me.” I share that sentiment. It pleases me to create an atmosphere of welcoming, beauty and enchantment. The shower began with friends arriving early to change into their dresses. With all of us milling around upstairs, primping, it felt like prom night. We were all ready when the doorbell rang. A hearty Surprise! shocked our little bride. We drew her in, dressed her up and began a fun filled evening. The dinner was catered from Los Hermonos, so you know I ate too much Mexican food. All of it bad but scrumptious. We ate, played Bunco, then settled in the living room for prizes, dessert and talk. What a magical evening.

Friday morning, after walking with friends, I took the leftovers to work. Most of the day I was in the office decorating her photo shower book. It was great fun to put everything together, especially at the office with everyone popping round to chat remembrances of the evening. The book turned out perfect. Driving home, I stopped in Rite-Aide and bought some ice cream to eat on the way home. Later I met with scouts then got ready for Adam Powers wedding reception. Here again I ate very poorly. Lots of M&M’s, cake and potato salad. The good news is today is Saturday. My schedule will slow down a bit. I only have two major things today giving me time to get myself together. I have been up since 6:00. It has felt good to catch up on this fit-day journal. The accountability is good for me. With a day to myself I plan to eat cereal. I know that sounds funny but I feel the need to purge. It is now almost 9:00 and I am going to have a bowl of cereal before my 9:30 appointment. Later today for lunch I will have cereal again. Tonight I have a rehearsal for the Christmas play at 5:00. I will have a salad before I go. A light day is what I need. Sonnet is coming over and we can talk about the coming week. I did much better that one week we looked ahead and made a plan for each upcoming event. I feel like I have grasped the handle on my diet again.

The day went as planned with one exception. I had another bowl of cereal for dinner. That makes three bowls of cereal today. Feels good.

Sunday November 16, 2008 Phase Two Day 210:
Got up when Stephen did @ 5:00. Lots of church work to do. Had a light & fit yogurt and left for choir. The choir sang beautifully today. Very nice. Church was wonderful. By the time I returned home at 2:00 I was hungry. I had cereal. I spent the afternoon making a small cake and some muffins for my Visiting Teachees. It is so fun to experiment with the pumpkin/cake mix thing. They turned out yummy – I know this because I had a small bit just to check. Then I made two big salads for Stephen & I. I knew he would not be home until after 4:00 but they would keep in the frig. When he finally got home, we ate dinner out by the pond. Stephen was asked to speak at stake standards night so I went out while he was gone. Had a nice visit with Susan Pritchett then stopped by the Sims with some extra muffins just for fun. I was home before 8:00 expecting Sonnet to come by for our Sunday evening stroll soon after her fireside. Cheyenne called and dropped by just before Sonnet arrived and we all had an enjoyable time. Idid not have any soup to offer Cheyenne (that’s what she usually craves at my house) but I did have some boiled eggs. She & Sonnet had some and I had a yogurt. Needless to say, we did not walk right away. After a lot of laughter, Cheyenne left and we walked. Now I am getting ready for bed. Two good days of controlled eating – good for me.

Monday November 17, 2008 Phase Two Day 211:
Out the door to walk with friends. Gobbled some quick cereal then was off to pick up my Mom for swimming. I am so glad that I am swimming. Sara called to say she and Blake were coming for a visit but she wasn’t sure when they would get away. How fun. I quickly got ready for work. Had many projects at work to wrap up so I would have time to spend with the kids. Went to the store on the way home and by the time the groceries were all put away I was hungry. I ate a granola bar but then started to feel funny. It was almost like I was getting sick with a bronchial infection – you know, kind of heavy in the chest. Coughing every few minutes. I thought, “Oh no, little Jacob is coming and I am sick!” I found some antibiotic in the cupboard and started popping them. I don’t know if I had anything or not but I thought better safe than sorry.

I put in a roast with all the trimmings and when they arrived, we had a delicious feast. Roast, potatoes, carrots, salad and mixed berries. I’ll be taking Jacob so the kids can have a good nights sleep.

Tuesday November 18, 2008 Phase Two Day 212:
No step class today. Oh, yea, I was up off and on all night. Jacob is a cute little thing, he is also the nosiest little baby I have ever heard. Not his crying – just his snorts, breathing and gurgles. He is so adorable to listen to except in the middle of the night. I kept hearing things and getting up to check. Sure enough, there he was just sleeping and snorting away. This morning I am tired but still going. I am sure I will crash later. I ate cereal then started in with chores. Blake slept in until about 8:20 when he had to get up and prepare to go back to Fresno for 3 classes. Sara stayed in bed until about 10:00 – heavenly. She said it was the best nights sleep in months. Good. I had a cantaloupe snack. We just visited and I did stuff around the house all morning. I had egg mix on crackers for lunch then went upstairs to take a nap.

Stephen woke me up for Enrichment. It was a potluck dinner so I took stew. I think everyone had the same idea because there were lots of soups and roast type dishes there. I had soup and a piece of bread and salad. I did make a trip to the dessert table and select a pumpkin cookie, a chocolate chip cookie with a dollop of ice cream on top. Now at home I am tired and feel a little punk. I should sleep while I can – it will probably be a long night as Jacob has been sleeping all evening.

Election Week 2008

Wednesday October 29, 2008 Phase Two Day 191:
What a fun day. It began walking with friends. Then I was home to eat cereal for breakfast and watch Andy Griffith. Then I was off to pick up my Mom for swimming. Today I told Shannon I would help Karissa with the Pre School. Those kids are so cute. We prearranged to walk the kids over here to look at the fishpond. They had so much fun. We went back and Karissa had them cook these darling pumpkin cookies on a stick, then we decorated them. I came home about 12:30. She insisted I take a pumpkin cookie. At home I ate it – don’t worry, it was not sicky sweet and mine did not have any frosting. Actually, it was very good. I took a few minutes and cut up the leftover roast and veggies up. I added broth, carrots and what ever else looked yummy and brought it all to a boil. One the menu tonight is stew.

For lunch, I fixed myself tuna and ate it with crackers, low fat cheese and pickles. I had a dry hot chocolate mix to top it off. Now I need to pop into the office before coming back home to meet with boy scouts…..Well, I went up to get ready for work but the bed looked so inviting. I thought, ‘If I can just rest for a minute”. Thirty minutes later I decided I would not go in. It is actually a good thing I stayed home because I checked the time for the Boys Scout appointment and it was an hour earlier than I thought. As it turned out thought, they stood me up. That’s OK. I worked on church stuff. Stephen came home and when it was time for dinner I did not even want soup. It was too warm for soup. I suggested we go to Denny’s on Morning Drive because time was getting short and we both had to be at the ball field for a stake YM/YW activity tonight. I ate the best grilled chicken salad. It was just what I was wanting.

I asked if I could make an announcement for the stake Christmas play at the activity. I was so pleased that 22 kids signed up. Now I am home and think I will have a hot chocolate. I cannot have a granola bar with it though. I was telling Sonnet how I have forgotten that awhile back I made a rule of thumb for myself regarding grains. I said I would not have a granola bar and crackers on the same day. What we have noticed about conveniently packaged grain products, i.e. granola bars, crackers, is that they are easy to grab and consequently added to the daily routine at the expense of fruits and veggies. We know grains are good for you so I am not including the healthy cereal I eat in the morning among the other grain choices. Besides, my cereal comes with milk, which is a good source of calcium for me. Hence, because I chose to have crackers with my tuna at lunch. Now if I want a snack, I should choose a fruit or veggie….I did not have anything after all, not even hot chocolate.

Thursday October 30, 2008 Phase Two Day 192:
Well, still no change in weight. No worries, it will happen. Up and out to step class this am. Came home to cereal and Andy. Lots of church work for the Christmas program this morning but now I really must get into work, especially since I did not make it in yesterday. For lunch I will take some soup and an apple. The question is, should I have crackers with my soup or save the grains for a granola bar later on? This is tough. I decided on the crackers. Lunch was very filling, especially the apple.

This afternoon I was on the run trying to get a letter out for the stake Christmas program. My boy scouts canceled (yes) which gave me an extra hour and a half before I needed to be across town to meet Sonnet for weight lift class. I did not eat dinner. Stephen had stew but I only had the last half of my yogurt before weight class then a bite of tuna mix before I zipped to the post office. On the way home from the post office I stopped at the store. It was nice to do big shopping and not just running in for a few things. At home I ate the rest of the tuna.

Friday October 31, 2008 Phase Two Day 193:
Halloween! Tonight Stephen & I have a temple sealing assignment. I will pick him up around 2:30 and we will head down. Do you know what this means? Custard at the temple cafeteria!!! Yea – what ever they are serving we will positively have custard for dessert.

So, my day started off at the church with friends. It was raining when I woke up. The Walkie Talkies have an agreement that if it is raining we will not show up to walk. By the time it was time to leave it had stopped so I decided to go. Rinez was the only one there and she was helping Doug with breakfast for his seminary class. I stayed and helped. At home, I made a cake for the office potluck today. Of course, while it was cooking I ate cereal and watched Andy. The potluck was a potato bar. The potatoes were not done on time so I started with dessert. Don’t worry, just a small piece of my cake to make sure it was OK. I did however, have some pumpkin cookies Alice brought. They were good. I had a potato with onions and spray butter. We arrived at the temple too early for a hot dinner so I had a delicious salad from the salad bar and custard. We were able to get in a session and some sealings before our scheduled sealing time. In fact, we had just enough time to run back down to the cafeteria and gobble another custard before our 7:00 appointment. I was hungry when we got home and had a granola bar.

Saturday November 1, 2008 Phase Two Day 194:
What a wonderful day. Actually slept in until 7:00. Stephen & I had cereal out by the pond. It is a mild, rainy morning. We are due to meet stake members at 8:00 for Prop 8. Sonnet met us there and together we took two packets and began covering neighborhoods with ‘Remember to Vote, Yes on 8” door hangers. We finally got back home around 1:30. I heated up the stew and we all had a warm bowl. I had hot chocolate as well.

My computer desk had two tall stacks of papers to organize, bills to pay and things to file that had been sorely neglected for weeks, so I spent a few hours catching up. For dinner, I fixed a wonderful salad with, carrots, boiled egg, red onion, avocado and grilled steak. It was a hearty salad that left us completely satisfied. We enjoyed mixed berries on the side. Later that evening Stephen & I attended the baptism of a delightful new family. On the way home we stopped at the store. Saturday night at Albertsons is always a social outing because invariably we see friends. This night we saw Shannon Rock, the Pitts and Sonnet. Back at home, I made a big batch of boiled egg mix. I told Steph we still have leftover stew and I did not want to make another roast tomorrow if we still had leftovers. We decided to finish the stew and have boiled eggs salad sandwiches. Egg sandwiches are a favorite. One good thing about the change is that tomorrow is fast Sunday and at least I won’t have to be in a house that smells delicious all afternoon while I am fasting.

Sunday November 2, 2008 Phase Two Day 195:
Today is fast Sunday and we have chosen to fast with the purpose of asking heavens aid in the passing of Prop 8 here in California. So much has been said and done regarding this important issue. Little of which has been mentioned in this record, but suffice it to say, hours of phone work, legwork as well as many prayers have been offered in Prop 8 efforts. When it was time to break our fast Stephen & I ate stew, eggs sandwiches (I ate the egg mix with my crackers) and mixed fruit for dinner. I had a hot chocolate for dessert. I had lots of church work in the afternoon and stake Christmas play auditions at 6:00. By the time I got home at 9:00 I was hungry and reached for half an egg sandwich.

Monday November 3, 2008 Phase Two Day 196:
This morning I walked with friends then picked up Mom for swimming. I ate some cereal then was off to work. For lunch I took egg mix and had a sandwich, some yogurt and a piece of the cake I made for the office potluck last Friday. Well, something snapped in me because it just kept going from there. Even though I had an apple and some carrots in my lunch bag I reached for another piece of cake. That wouldn’t have been terrible but when I got home an hour later I kept going. I took from the freezer the peppermint ice cream Gaye made at movie day two weeks ago. It tasted wonderful especially with the chocolate syrup I poured on top. When I went to put the dish away I reached for a banana – why??? I don’t know. Then just because It was there I had two pieces of peanut butter toast! What a maniac! Isn’t that crazy!!! Oh well, what’s done is done. I will be fine as I eat a salad for dinner.

Tuesday November 4, 2008 Phase Two Day 197:
What a day in history! Today is Election Day 2008 and one way or another we will make election history with either a black president or a female vice president. Those things don’t really matter much to me as I am more concerned with the candidates character and ideology rather than their birth packaging. But, on the other hand, these historic changes do influence our nations future and anything that opens doors to all of our children’s potential is a good thing. Also, it is the due date for Sara & Blake. So far no movement to speak. Maybe tomorrow on my birthday J

So, I was up and out to step class then home for weigh in – yea – I am down 2 more pounds. Sonnet down another pound. I ate cereal and dashed off to the overpass to hold Yes on Prop 8 signs got an hour. When I got home, I needed to get flowers in the ground so I gardened for a couple hours. I knew I would be working the election polls later so I cleaned up, ate and egg sandwich & yogurt then reported to Stephanie’s house.

I had a cereal snack between poll work assignments. No afternoon weight lift class because of poll work. Salad for dinner.

Doing Better

Wednesday October 22, 2008 Phase Two Day 184:
Nice morning to walk with friends. Came home and had a bowl of cereal. You can sure tell it is fall because it is kind of chilly in the house. I have a lot on my schedule today. This morning I help Karissa with the day care at Shannon’s. After that I need to get in to the office to start my annual report that is due next week. As soon as I’m finished there I want to get out to the ball field and begin cleaning up the eating area and restrooms. I set the last of the stew aside for lunch today and will probably have it between day care and work. I have a few minutes now, so I think I will get my menu for this week written down.

OK, I have good news and I have bad news…the good news is that today the b-day celebration did not happen because one of the honorees is out sick. The bad news is that tomorrow is movie day and Gaye is bringing homemade peppermint ice cream. My Favorite!! Ice cream is always in order but peppermint?? I have decided to put some in a container and take it home to put in my freezer. Good for me.

I did eat stew and cracker for lunch. I had a granola bar for mid morning snack and another one for mid afternoon snack. I followed the menu for dinner by making stir fry with chicken. It turned out very tasty. I had a yogurt with it. Sonnet is here now so we are off for a power walk.

Thursday October 23, 2008 Phase Two Day 185:
Step class first thing then to Wal-Mart to pick up a b-day gift for Jared and two baby shower gifts. Back home I ate cereal, dressed then headed out to movie day at Rinez’s house. We watched, “The Pride of the Yankee’s”, a wonderful story about Lou Gherich. Gaye brought home made peppermint ice cream and but some in a container for me. It is in my freezer for later. I had some popcorn and a few grapes but that was all. When the movie was over we all went to the Prop 8 rally downtown. I ran a few errands and returned home about 3:00. I was hungry so I had another quick bowl of cereal and made myself a nice cup of hot chocolate then settled down to read. Of course that lasted only about 4 pages and I fell fast asleep. I got to bed kind of late last night, so it was a welcome rest. Luckily, Cheyenne called at 5:10 to get a recipe. I jumped up, got dressed and dashed to the gym to meet Sonnet. We had a nice workout then hurried home to clean up before going to a baby shower. We were late but it was so packed with people no one noticed. At the shower, I ate five meatballs, some carrots and mixed berries. Lastly, at home before bed I drank a hot chocolate.

Friday October 24, 2008 Phase Two Day 186:
Had some yogurt then met at the church to walk with friends. Ate cereal and now am headed off to work. Only stayed in the office for a bout an hour. Came home to change then pick up Karl’s truck. I feel much more relaxed now that I have picked up the sound equipment and generator. Hopefully I can meet with Danny tonight and we can make sure this music thing will work. For lunch I ate the leftover chicken, a yogurt and the last of the Cheerios. Tonight I have the spaghetti dinner with Mom at the senior center – that does not even sound good. I would really love to have a hearty salad, but what are you going to do - when it comes to your Mom, you just do it. Tonight, Stephen and I will go to the ball field to get things ready for tomorrow. I am happy the stake picnic is almost here. There comes a point when I get tired of thinking and talking about a thing and just want to do it!

Saturday October 25, 2008 Phase Two Day 187:
Oh boy, it’s picnic day! My day started at 5:00. We were not scheduled to wake up until 7:00 but I could not sleep and at 5:30 I got up and went down stairs. I think I was keyed up/excited about the picnic. I snatched a yogurt from the frig and took the opportunity to read. I made some real progress in the latest book I’m reading. Usually I am so tired by the time I go to be I only manage a page or two before falling asleep. When the alarm did go off Stephen came and found me. It begins – he hopped in the shower and I went to the kitchen to fix bacon, eggs, toast and cantaloupe. Then we were off to the ballpark.

First thing, I met with Danny and began experimenting with the sound equipment. Then the Pitts and Sonnet showed up to cover tables and decorate. A slew of Monica ward brethren came to fill their assignment and set up all the tables and chairs, build the hay mountain and do whatever else I asked them to do. We got it all together in no time. Sonnet & I had a baby shower so we left. Because the sound equipment was out there, the place could not be left unmanned. Stephen had plenty of puttering to do and offered to stay. I called Shelby Munn to ask if he would bring him a sandwich. Meanwhile, the shower was fun. Sonnet and I looked the luncheon table over and decided we would have half a croissant chicken sandwich, and a big helping of spinach salad. We also thought one small piece of pumpkin pie (without whipped cream) would be OK. I went back to the ball field to spell Stephen if he needed to go home, but he said there was plenty to keep him busy so I left.

I went to the store to get a roast for tomorrow and a few other items. Back home I had the luxury of getting the roast in the pot for Sunday dinner ahead of time. One great thing – I found my yummy granola bars, yea. Food Max caries them - hooray. The picnic was great fun!! It exceeded my expectation! For dinner I ate, as pre arranged with Sonnet, some beans and a hot dog without the bun. That was fine. Mostly I just wanted water. Later, I grabbed another hot dog. At the end of the evening I was worn out. Our ball field is very big and even though we did not formally exercise, we got a workout toting things back and forth most of the day as well as running from venue to venue throughout the night. I am ecstatically pooped.

Sunday October 26, 2008 Phase Two Day 188:
Sunday, oh, Sunday, day of rest. Awake again at 5:30. Got up with Stephen. Reflecting on yesterday, I cannot say enough how much I appreciate Stephen & Sonnet. They are always right there helping me all the way when I have an assignment. Stephen was up and out to meetings and I am at the computer catching up. I had cereal this morning. I have noticed the last week or two, when I wake up I have an uneasy stomach. I usually have some yogurt right away and that seems to help. Today it was the same. Then after a few hours I was in Sacrament meeting and my tummy started feeling poor again. During Sunday School I ran home - partly because I forgot to put the roast in but mostly because I thought I needed something in my stomach. I had a warm cup of hot chocolate and a granola bar. It really helped. I returned to church for the third hour.

I love to hit the door on Sunday and be delighted with the delectable smell of roast. I will put together a salad and be ready when Stephen gets home. I also love to hear him sigh when he come through the door and say how wonderful dinner smells. We ate dinner out by the pond, it was very relaxing.

Stephen was so worn out from the week of working each evening at the ball field and then being on his feet all day Saturday, that he went to lay down for a while before getting up for an evening priesthood meeting. I had a visiting teaching appointment. When Stephen left for his meeting I went to the stake center with him. I have shifted gears and must move on to the stake Christmas program. This year we are performing a play. I had a couple girls read some parts for me. This week I will be hearing people and getting the cast together. Came home an enjoyed an evening stroll with Sonnet. We reviewed the week and reported on our eating. Sonnet had a brain fade yesterday but overall had a good week. So did I. I stuck to the no white flour (except the half croissant that we agreed upon) and stayed away from all desserts. I have enjoyed following the menu as well. Having something planned really alleviates stress.

Monday October 27, 2008 Phase Two Day 189:
Tummy ache again this morning. Could not really sleep past 5:00. Walked with friends then picked up Mom and it was back to the pool. I am so glad her toe infection is all healed up. At home, I enjoyed a breakfast of cereal and Andy Griffith. Went in to the office and worked all day on a state report. Mid morning, my stomach reminded me it was there so I had a little 100-calorie cracker snack. For lunch I packed leftover salad, a granola bar and hot chocolate. On the menu tonight was taco salad. Stephen loaded up his bike and took the Jeep to the shop downtown then rode home. I was finishing up dinner when he arrived so we ate outside at the pond while he cooled down.

Tuesday October 28, 2008 Phase Two Day 190:
No stomach ache this morning. I did not take my vitamins before bed last night. I occurred to me yesterday that I started taking my vitamins before bed a couple weeks ago. Maybe that is the reason for my discomfort. I got up and going to step class. I had cereal for breakfast. Today was my deadline to turn in my state Medi-Cal report for work. I went in and was bust all day with it. I took my lunch of leftover taco salad, a granola bar and hot chocolate. Mid morning I had a 100 calorie cracker snack. By the time I left work, I was late to a rehearsal with Jenna Ricks and her friend Paige. They asked me to help them with their oral language presentation. They are quit good and it was a pleasure to work with them. We were almost finished when I remembered my 4:30 weight lift class. I checked my watch and noted the time as 4:20. I made my excuses and hurried away. I was late again. When I came in to class Sonnet mimed over the loud music the question, “were you sleeping?” I guess I have been late because of that. This time, no.

We came home and Uncle Mike & Stephen were just pulling in from their excursion setting out a large 4’ X 8’ wooden ‘Yes on Prop 8’ sign. Sonnet & I fixed Fajitas and we all had dinner outside by the pond. I cooked the steak strips with seasoning, red and green bell peppers and onion. Sliced and ready to add were tomatoes and avocado. We served them with salad. It was very pleasant. After dinner, I had a cup of hot chocolate. Oh, I forgot - Today is weigh in day. Our Pow-wow rendered good results for Sonnet, she dropped 3 pounds. Unfortunately I did not. I am not discouraged though. I know I showed restraint. I will simply continue on this good path and patiently await the results.

Pow-Wow Time

Wednesday October 15, 2008 Phase Two Day 177:
Great day so far. Met friends for walk then went to Home Depot. I picked up a few gardening things then went home and puttered in the front yard. It was nice to weed and trim. In the back yard, I cleaned up the pond area. I cannot really spruce up the place until I get some money to buy plants and flowers. I love gardening. I came in about 9:15 to have cereal. Now I will get cleaned up and go to the dentist. I am so excited – I am going to have the spot on one of my front teeth removed. I cannot believe I have waited until I am 50 years old to get something done that has bothered me my whole life. Every picture I take I see that darn spot. I think it is because until now I have never felt comfortable enough with a dentist to even think about mentioning it. So, hopefully by noon I shall have a new look.

For lunch I will take some Chinese chicken salad Sonnet made, a granola bar and some yogurt. Don’t know about dinner……Well, I ate just what I planned for lunch and a few little pieces of fruit from the lounge. There were cookies but I told myself I was not supposed to have them. I think I am about to start my period because I have the munchies real bad. I just want to eat, eat, and eat. I just got home and grabbed another granola bar. Good thing those bars are only 100 calories and mostly whole grains.

For dinner I will probably give Stephen the rest of the chicken salad and some of the leftover steamed veggies from last night. I want some cereal! We’ll see….. For dinner, I ended up splitting the chicken salad with Sonnet. I also had a few of the leftover veggies. Of course, I topped it off with a bowl of cereal. Stephen & Sonnet left and I watched the debates. It was the best one. I liked the format and I liked McCain’s aggression. Well done, finally. Sonnet is coming over after Institute class and we will go for a power walk.

Thursday October 16, 2008 Phase Two Day 178:
Today I went to step class and saw for the second time a very nice girl named Molly. She is a labor & delivery nurse at Memorial. Outside in the parking lot we talked about Prop 8. Now I am off to breakfast with the Walkie-Talkies to celebrate Gaye’s B-day. We are way behind on our celebrations but we needed to get hers in because Shannon’s is coming up next week. I think I will have eggs of some sort.

What a delightful breakfast we had together. I was there first and when the waitress asked me if I wanted anything to drink I said hot chocolate. I should have passed but I didn’t. I might interject that it was very good and left me feeling warn and toasty inside. My friends arrived and we all ordered delicious meals. I had a Denver omelets. Leaning upon my friends for strength, I abstained from having the home fried potatoes that came with it and opted for the fruit plate and wheat toast instead of a biscuit. It was a good choice.

I did not bring anything to the office for lunch which proved to be a problem. I got hungry and began to graze from desk to desk. Most always and especially at holiday time, everyone puts out candy treats. Halloween candy in readily available on most every desk. I helped myself to a few pieces. When I got home, I had a bowl of cereal and a yogurt. Stephen, Sonnet & I went to the show and saw a great movie called Fireproof. It is a faith-based movie based on the sanity of marriage. It even takes on the scourge of pornography – excellent! I ran a few errands on the way home and when I arrived Cheyenne was over. Sonnet, Cheyenne & I had a fun time. I had a little leftover chicken soup in the frig that I heated for the girls. I had the last swallow of soup, a granola bar ad some hot chocolate (sugar free).

Friday October 17, 2008 Phase Two Day 179:
This morning I walked with friends then came home to a bowl of cereal. Now I have some church work then off to the office. Today I will plan better for lunch and stay away of the office candy…..OK, temptation must be my middle name. Here I am, minding my own business, when the phone rings. It is Stephen – he asked me if I remember the BBQ lunch he took me to last year out in Shafter. Yes, I say. Well, this years BBQ turns out to be today! He says he is on his way to pick me up if I want to go. Oh, let me think…YES! This BBQ is sponsored by a vendor of some sort and as I remember, is very yummy. They grill one inch thick pork chops and serve them with beans, salad and a roll. We had a wonderful time. On the way back to town, he pulled in to Sonic to get a hot fudge brownie Sunday. I wonder where he got an idea like that?

After work I stopped by Baja’ Fresh. Tomorrow I really must go to the store and restock, but tonight we had a movie all picked out for date night and I wanted to have something good to eat with it. I ate a chicken salsa salad and two taquitos. Should I mention the churro I ate on the way home? I also had a hot chocolate during the movie. Stephen is going to go on a long bike ride tomorrow morning – what shall I do?

Saturday October 18, 2008 Phase Two Day 180:
Well this is what I did. Stephen & I slept in – I have observed that if Stephen does not set and alarm, or if he says, “I’ll go whenever I wake up” he usually does not end up going out on a ride. Such was the case this morning. We got to bed about midnight and at 8:20 I could not stay in bed any longer. I got up, fixed bacon, eggs, toast and cantaloupe for us, and took it up to our room. Stephen sat up and we had breakfast in bed. The phone started ringing. Stephen was tied up off and on with a Bishop issue for a few hours and I busied myself with Prop 8 calling then did some gardening. I had a bowl of cereal about 11:30. When Stephen returned from his issue, he sat at the computer to get Bishop email business ready for tomorrow. Our printer is not working so the last couple of days when I need to print something, I run over to Shannon’s. I went to print out our church stuff and stopped by Pritchett’s on the way home. It seemed we were busy all morning and on into the afternoon.

We both grazed around the kitchen. I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and a granola bar. We were headed over to my brothers house for dinner at 4:00. My nephew, Patrick, is in the Air Force and will be shipping out to Italy at the end of the month. We had a nice family dinner. Before dinner I snacked on carrots and wheat thin crackers. For dinner I ate a hamburger, jello salad and beans. It was so good I went back and fixed myself another hamburger and shared it with Stephen. For dessert Jenell offered pumpkin pie and spice cake – I had a small piece of both.

This would not be a tragic meal for a person who is in maintenance mode, but I am still supposed to be loosing weight. Stephen & I went to the grocery store on the way home. He said he wants to cut the fluff so we purchased good food and I have set a menu for the next few days. I find planning ahead helps to make a difference for me. I also need to get back in the pool. Because of Mom’s foot infection I have not taken her for our usual Monday/Wednesday swim. Without her, I have stopped also, which is weird because I was going for about a month before I ever took her with me. Strange – I guess I am just being lazy.

Sunday October 19, 2008 Phase Two Day 181:
I get to substitute in the Sunbeam class today. You have not lived until you have substituted in a sunbeam class. I fortified myself with a granola bar before setting off to church. Well, four and a half hours and eleven very active sunbeams later I am home and hungry. Although, Stephen did give me a miniature Butterfinger candy after church. He said when Shannon Rock was passing them out he took one for me. He knows I love Butterfinger. I hit the door and the wonderful aroma of roast in the oven hits me. Hummmmmm. That dinner will wait for later when Stephen comes home. Right now I want cereal. Straight to the kitchen I go and what do I see out in my garden by the pond - A cat. One fish has already disappeared so I immediately reach for my BB gun. I sure sent that cat scampering out of here. Now for my cereal.

Stephen came home and we shared a delicious dinner. Roast, potatoes, carrots, onion, salad, and mixed berries for dessert. We ate about an hour after I had eaten cereal so I was very full. I will probably have a sugar free chocolate or hot chocolate later but I think I am pretty much done for the evening. Sonnet should come by after the YSA fireside for an evening stroll. I think Sonnet and I need to have a serious meeting and goal review. Things are not progressing as they should.

Monday October 20, 2008 Phase Two Day 182:
Sonnet did not make it over last night until late so we did not walk. We decided to pow-wow tomorrow night. We need to review goals and reread some of the book. This morning I walked with friends then stopped by Mom’s house. Mom gave me some chocolate kisses, I ate a few then tossed the others out. We did talk about her getting back in the pool. She sees the docter on Wednesday and will ask him if she is clear to swim. I hope so – it really helps me when I have to take her. I came home and had cereal. Now I am off for errands and work. I will take tuna & crackers and cantaloupe for lunch today.

So out the door I go and totally forget to bring my lunch. As it happened Wanda was free for lunch so I took advantage of our schedules to take her out to lunch. Something I have been trying to do since last week on Bosses day. We went to Westchester bowling alley for their famous fish. I substituted the fries and coleslaw for a salad. Before you get too excited I also had a chocolate milk shake. I was pretty full from lunch all afternoon. When Stephen came home, we went to Evelene Epps house to visit for a while then on to the post office to mail my stake picnic letters. We came home to eat. I was so glad I had cut up the leftover roast and veggies and put them in a stew pot yesterday. I just added some diced tomatoes, celery, seasonings and turned up the heat. It was delicious stew. We finished the mixed berries as well. Oh, I did eat one granola bar while I was waiting for the stew. Weigh in is tomorrow and so is my meeting with Sonnet.

Tuesday October 21, 2008 Phase Two Day 183
Up and out to step class this morning. Sonnet came by to weigh in but I missed her because I went to Wal-Mart after step. At home, I ate cereal for breakfast. I am about to hop in the shower then get in to work. I think I will take stew today. That sounds good to me….So I ate a granola bar on my way out to run errands before work. I had lunch at work and the stew was even better the second day. I had crackers with it. One bad thing – there was leftover ice cream in the lounge frig and I had some. It is light – low fat, but still. Later I had my afternoon granola bar at my desk. Now I am home and want to snack so I think I’ll fill a bottle of water and sit down to fold laundry. I have weight lift class before too long.

After class Sonnet came over and we measured then had a honest talk. She has been struggling as much as I have. We pointed out our weak points: White flour (bread, pasta, tortilla chips) and sugar (cakes, candy, desserts, ice cream). She also pointed out her weakness of irregular exercise. My exercise is great but I eat sooooo much and soooo many bad foods that I am falling behind in the calories in vs. calories burned battle. We made a commitment to each other that for this coming week we will address our weak points. That means no white flour or sweet sugar. Sweet sugar is defined as things that are a dessert in nature (pie, cookies) not things that have sugar in them like Catsup for example.

Together we looked at the upcoming week of activities. Of course, I have movie day, then we both have two baby showers, one spaghetti dinner and one stake picnic. Those are just the things that are scheduled. That does not even take into account candy around the office or weak moments at home. Well, we decided what we would and would not have at each event. For example at the stake picnic we can have a hotdog but no bun. We can have the beans but no chips. Needless to say, no pie and ice cream. Tragic! But not really – I am so happy to get back into a better mind set. Sonnet expressed that she missed the way she was feeling physically and mentally. I missed it too. I like to feel in control of my appetite. I think it is a dimension of spiritual maturity that demonstrats my spirit is ruling my body and not the other way around. Oh great, I just remembered we have a birthday celebration at work tomorrow – I think it is supposed to be pumpkin something!!! OK, I can do this. I do not have to abandon my resolve. I will pop into the lounge, laugh and smile and have a quick conversation then get the heck out of there!

In addition, this week Sonnet is going to begin packing her lunch for school again and make sure she includes a salad. I told her that not taking a lunch to work is one of my down falls and totally epitomizes the phrase, “When you fail to plan, you plan to fail”. As for me, this week I am going to write down a menu for dinners. This way I can plan good foods with veggies. Stephen & I love to go out but we cannot afford to keep going out all the time. I hope this menu will help organize and commit me to prepare dinners regularly.

Lastly, I set a new weight goal. I want to be 140 by Thanksgiving. I think that is reasonable and attainable. By the way, evening eating si as follows: after class I had a yogurt then later I had a bowl of Cheerios.

There are days, and there are days

Wednesday October 8, 2008 Phase Two Day 170:
Up and out but back and down. Met friends for walking but decided to come back to the house for hot chocolate. We finalized plans assignments for taking dinner to the Campbell’s tomorrow, flowers for the funeral as well as serving at the reception on Saturday. I have a hair appointment this morning then I have an appointment to get a massage…..heavenly.

It was everything I hoped and more. Boy did I need a massage. I haven’t felt that good in weeks. Back home I ate the last of the luscious lasagna. I also had some cereal. I have really become cereal girl. Some benefits are the amount of calcium from milk and the fiber from the protein Special K. Sew, sew sew. I am having fun sewing.

Tonight we went to the church broadcast for prop 8. What a fight we have on our hands here in the state of California. There are many people who believe in traditional marriage between a man and a woman, however, some are apathetic when it come to voting and even more who think it easier to go along with the flow in the name of getting along. People sometimes struggle thinking it is judging others to stand up for an opposing view. The fireside was very good and I hope it will help all of us in this important endeavor. When we came home I was hungry and realized I never ate dinner. I had a……what do you think…..bowl of cereal.

Thursday October 9, 2008 Phase Two Day 171:
Good morning. Today I ate a light & fit yogurt and went to step class. Some girls were talking about Sarah Palin and I said I wanted a McCain/Palin yard sign. I said I already had my ‘Yes on Prop 8’ sign. A few said they wanted one so I will try to get some to take to class next Tuesday. This morning I will have cereal but I need to make my stake fall social flyer first. I need to hand out all the flyers and posters tonight at Bishopric training.

Lunch – I think I eat too much at one time. For lunch, I had an apple, then tuna and crackers. When I say Tuna and crackers I mean the whole can of tuna with green onion and mayo on six crackers. Then I had the last Skinny Cow ice cream. I was still munching so I ate a miniature pop tart thing. See, that is too much. It is probably because I was at home and could wander into the kitchen whenever. The good news is that when I eat like that I usually have something light for dinner. Stephen cooked two eggs, bacon and one piece of toast for each of us. I went to Bishopric training then home to walk with Sonnet.

Friday October 10, 2008 Phase Two Day 172:
Walked with friends. Came home to eat cereal then off to Connie’s for a quick run through of the song for Shannon’s funeral. I am so nervous. I have prayed for composer. My nightmare is that I will detract from the Spirit and make people uncomfortable with my emotions. Having a voice to sing is one of the happiest aspects in my life but it is not without its stresses. May the Lord help me today, yet even as I speak the words I know He will.

Shannon’s funeral was lovely, just like her life. Together we remembered with laughter and tears the wonderful young woman she is. Testimonies of the plan of salvation were declared with power from the Spirit. As far as my song goes, I can say I tried. I began then had to remain silent for a time as the beautiful piano played on. I finished pretty strong so maybe I did not make anyone too uncomfortable. People said it was all right – I only hope it was.

My good friend Debbie came from over from Sandy Valley. Following the graveside the Walkie-Talkies (minus Rinez), Cindy, Sonnet, Debbie & her sister Kathleen went out to the Hometown Buffet for lunch. Of course I ate way too much but then so did everyone else. I was very full when we left. That night Stephen & I had a company dinner to attend. You know that means trouble. I was still full from lunch when this wonderful steak dinner with mashed potatoes and veggies was placed before me. The meal was especially delectable. Maybe because I have not had mashed potatoes in such a long time, or maybe just because I love food, but everything tasted good. They served a small piece of cheesecake for dessert. I did pay the consequence for over eating though. I felt very uncomfortable for the rest of the evening. I actually thought of throwing up at one point and wished I knew how to make myself do it.

Saturday October 11, 2008 Phase Two Day 173:
What a day! I have three major things going on today. First up, I need to wrap the baby shower gift for Sara. Sara’s mom asked if I would make a blessing out fit out of Sara’s wedding dress so I have been busy with that. I think it turned out nice.



Next, get Sonnet and my Mom then drive to Fresno for Sara’s baby shower. We got there about 10:15 because it started at 10:30. The hostesses Lori & Grace served quiche, breakfast casserole, muffins and crepes. It was a lovely spread. In my post pig-out pain of the previous night, I swore off food for life, however somehow I managed to enjoy the brunch.

Following the shower, I made a mad dash back to Bakersfield and out to Hart Park to attend a Dunn family reunion picnic. We did not get there until a little before 3:00. The weather was cool and breezy but all had a good time. In addition to the traditional chicken, I sampled all kinds of things I have not tasted in a long time. Things like bread pudding, tamale pie and homemade applesauce. By 5:20 we made our excuses and left to race home and change for the Campbell reception. I was due at the Neville’s house by 6:00 to begin dessert and punch preparations.

The evening was cold so we made a last minute adjustment to the menu by adding hot chocolate. It was very popular. Throughout the night I snacked on a few butter mints and a piece of pumpkin pie. By the time we cleaned up and headed home I was wanting a hamburger. Now I do not usually crave hamburgers – check this journal, you will probably only find about three hamburgers’ since I began in April. So, on the way home when I said I wanted a hamburger Stephen did not have to be told twice. We pulled into Farm Boys and had one. I am officially finished with the eating frenzy. Tomorrow is fast Sunday and will be a nice rest for my poor body.

Sunday October 12, 2008 Phase Two Day 174:
Stephen’s car still does not work so I was up to drive Stephen to the church this morning at 5:30. What a good man he is. There is so much he does and so much he carries that I know nothing of. He accomplishes it all without complaint. I came back home a laid down. Before leaving for choir, I stopped by the stake center to put up the posters for the stake social. Testimony meeting began with six babies being blessed. I have never been in a ward with six babies blessed on the same day. It was wonderful. Two more are waiting and will be blessed next month.

It is going on 5:00 so I will go down to the kitchen to see what I can stir up. The heater is off and I am cold in the house. Something warm sounds good to me……Well this is what I did. I just kept opening cans of stuff and dumping them in a pot. Lots of chicken broth, a cream of broccoli soup, a cream corn, a cream of chicken, a few chicken noodle as well as some fresh celery, carrots and chicken that was leftover from the reunion picnic yesterday. We were not sure what it would be like but to our surprise, it was very yummy. I had a bowl of soup, a roll and a half and some hot chocolate. Perfect.

Monday October 13, 2008 Phase Two Day 175:
Boy it has gotten chilly in the morning. I walked with friends this morning and needed a sweatshirt. Came home and had cottage cheeses and cantaloupe while watching one episode of Andy Griffith. Cleaned house a little and did church work. I think I will go in to the office just before lunch to check my desk and eat with them. I will take chicken soup, crackers and cantaloupe. I have a Medi-Cal meeting all afternoon at Mercy.

I ate one cookie at my meeting but nothing else. Tonight Stephen & I had soup and one piece of cheese bread. We went out to the ball field to check out the facility in preparation for the stake picnic. On the way home, we went to the grocery store. I have looked high and low for the granola bars I like so well but to no avail. I am so disappointed. I picked up two other brands to try them. I ate one on the way home. It was good but not as good as my favorite.

Tuesday October 14, 2008 Phase Two Day 176:
Step class day. I am excited to go because a few of the girls said they wanted ‘Yes on Prop 8’ yard signs. Class was good and my friends took the signs. Today is weigh day and I am a few pounds up. I know why though. I am just getting back into life after the shingles bout and except for walking not much exercising for about three weeks. A swim here and a class there but all in all very much off my schedule. Also, I was wondering if all the cereal I have been eating would add weight. I have noticeably laid off the veggies which is bad. I had two horrible pig-out days on Friday & Saturday and to top if off I have not gone to the bathroom since Friday! I think the cereal helps to keep me regular so I want to keep it on my menu. I love cereal and would eat it all day if I could. I really need to exercise self control with the portion size because I usually pour huge bowls which most likely are double the portion size which means double the calories.

So, how should I plan for eating today? I think I’ll start with cereal. For lunch, I’ll take soup, cantaloupe and a yogurt with me to the office. I have the new granola bars so I’ll have one of those for a snack. For dinner tonight I’ll fix Chinese chicken salad. I meet Sonnet for weight lift class this afternoon which I am looking forward to.

Wow, I just laid down to read for a little while and fell fast asleep. I woke up two and a half hours later. Sure did feel good though. So much for sewing this morning. I have eaten cereal and now should get ready and head in to the office. Because I ate cereal so late, I was not hungry at the office until late. At my desk during the afternoon I ate my yogurt then a granola bar. Later at home, I had another granola bar before going with Sonnet to weight lift class. Stephen & I had the salad bar and steamed veggies at Marie Callander’s. What a nice day of rest, work and exercise – oh, and I finally went to the bathroom!

Workin' My Plan

Wednesday October 1, 2008 Phase Two Day 163:
Good Morning! So far so good. I walked with friends this am as planned. I then picked up my Mom to go swimming as planned. It was a good workout. Between walking and swimming I ate some Special K cereal. Now, I had planned to return to work today but decided to stay out one more day. My face looks pretty good but one more little pock blister appeared on my cheek and I want it to dry up before I go back.

This morning I have spent my time finishing up the quilt top for Taunie. I ate tuna and crackers for lunch. Now I think I will file all the rough edges on my fingernails and put some clear polish on them. This will help keep them out of my mouth. Next, I should make an inventory of the grocery scene and make a run to the store. I’ll see if I have the ingredients for Oriental chicken salad. I feel like I am getting a measure of control back.

OK, so Stephen came home and we headed out to the store together. As we were driving, he said Sarah Palin was being interviewed on the Sean Hannity radio show in about 20 minutes. So we went to Zorba’s and got chicken salads to eat in the car while we listened. As it turned, because of rebroadcasting schedules she was not on when we thought so we went on to the store. Once home me evening rounded out with checking out some fabric to finish Taunie’s quilt, cleaning the church and walking with Sonnet.

I am so glad I had a decent day. Good food, exercise and self-control. Well done Me.

Thursday October 2, 2008 Phase Two Day 164:
I got to bed around 11:00 so no step class this morning. Stephen & I had a lovely sleep in. I ate Special K for breakfast then packed a lunch for the office of tuna sandwich fixings, a boiled egg and a nectarine. This morning I have done laundry and ironing. Now it is time to get ready and make an appearance at Standard School District.

Work was nice. I ate my lunch. When I returned home about 3:30 I had a cereal snack then waited for the boy scouts to come by. For dinner I cooked a boneless and skinless chicken breast. It turned out very tasty. First I dipped it in eggbeaters then covered it with a mixture of flour and one package of Italian dressing seasoning. I slow cooked it in light olive oil in a covered frying pan….Mmmmmm. While it was cooking, I made a delicious salad loaded with bell peppers, cucumber, green onion, tomato and boiled egg. I cubed the chicken and put a generous helping on top. Sonnet was over so she joined Stephen & I for salad while we watched the Vice Presidential debate. Sonnet & IO had to leave half way through it to pick up Mom for Disney on Ice. She really wanted to see it so I said we would go with her.

Now back at home I am ready for bed. I did pretty well with my fingernails today. This afternoon there were some rough spots that I picked at a little. I will file them before I go to bed and put another coat of polish on. Two days eating normal in a row. Slowly I am getting it together.

Friday October 3, 2008 Phase Two Day 165:
Boy I am tired. I did not sleep well last night at all. It seemed I was up every hour and when I was not awake, I was dreaming weird dreams. I did not want to walk this morning but I walked anyway. Rinez is in Arizona and Gaye is in Utah but Jami & I walked and met up with Shannon. Back home I had cereal for breakfast while I watched one episode of Andy Griffith. Now I feel relaxed and tired so I think I will unplug the phones and lay down to read. That should only last a few pages and I will be out.

Good idea but it did not really work. I did read and did get sleepy but I did not stay asleep very long. Oh well, I finally got up. For lunch I ate a tuna sandwich and another bowl of cereal. When Stephen came home we decided to go out for date night. We took in the new movie An American Carol. Usually before we go into the show, we stop at Los Hermonos for chicken tacos. They are very good and pretty cheep. If you ask for soft tacos you get two and each has two corn tortillas. So, if you separate the tortillas you end up with four soft tacos. They are simple with grilled chicken, lettuce, onion and cilantro. We add salsa and lime to spruce them up. I was so ready for that but guess what - I forgot to say soft tacos and we got crunchy tortillas instead. Bummer. They were still good but fattier because of the fried taco shell. Back home and in for the evening, I just had a small light & fit yogurt. Oh yea, I did have a hand full of peanut M&M’s on my way into the show. All in all a good day. Wait a minute – am I being delusional? I do not think having a handful of M&M’s is that bad. I am sticking with the good day theory.

Saturday October 4, 2008 Phase Two Day 166:
Beautiful General Conference day. Stephen got up and went for a ride. I went to swim. We both made it back in time to get dressed and go view conference at the stake center. I had cereal for breakfast……Conference was wonderful! But then, we expect nothing less. It is always a feast. I found it especially personal.

For lunch I grabbed a nectarine and dashed out to Beverly Fabric to meet the lady that is long arm quilting Taunie’s quilt for me. When I got back home, I had just enough to slurp down some chicken & rice soup with crackers and a boiled egg. The second session of conference was just as good. For dinner, I fixed a loaded salad with grilled chicken. Sonnet & I went to the store while Stephen was at Priesthood session. I am so bummed - I cannot find my tasty granola bars. I absolutely love them and neither Vons nor Albertsons have them on the shelf. I know I have purchased then in the past and I thought it was at Albertsons. You can bet the search will continue. Sonnet picked up another kind and I tried it when we got home. Nothing special. All in all a very good day.

Sunday October 5, 2008 Phase Two Day 167:
How can one day be so full of life’s emotion when it is only noon? Today is Stephen’s B-day. We were awakened by the phone and Sonnet singing to her dad. We snoozed a little longer before getting up, having cereal for breakfast and leaving for conference. This morning’s session was very beautiful. So many words of counsel. At home for lunch I ate, egg mix on one piece of bread and a little more on some crackers. I had a light & fit yogurt with it. I put a roast on for dinner then headed back to the stake center.

What I have not mentioned is a phone message that was waiting for me after the first session of conference. Jami asked me to return her call. She gave me the news that Shannon Campbell Royer passed away early this morning. So you see, there it was not even noon, and so far I had had a wonderful morning at home celebrating my husband then on to an inspiring session with the church authorities, then back home to this news of our dear Shannon. Life surely happened today.

The second session of conference was just as heavenly. When we got home the house was filled with the delicious aroma of roast. Stephen ran out for a quick minute to extend a calling. When he returned, we had a nice dinner of roast, potatoes, carrots and salad. It was so scrumptious. Stephen remembered when we used to have roast dinners like this every Sunday. It was so easy to put a big pot in the oven before leaving for church then coming home afterwards to a mouth-watering smell and completely cooked dinner. He thinks we should bring back that tradition. We gave him his presents during dinner. He mentioned yesterday that he did not want a cake. He really would like to be better at eating the right kinds of foods. (Of course, today I found him empting a bag of Fritos but we won’t mention that). So, for birthday dessert Sonnet and I found some treats from a brand called Skinny Cow. They make ice cream desserts that are low in fat and calories. We stuck a candle in it, turned out the lights and sang a robust rendition of Happy Birthday. He made a wish, blew out the candle and ate it up. We all had one and I can report that they are very good. For a low fat treat, we all agreed they are creamy and very flavorful. Later that evening I had another.


Monday October 6, 2008 Phase Two Day 168:
Sara’s Birthday today! We called bright and early to wish her Happy Birthday. I did not walk this morning – none of us did. I was busy on the computer in the morning then broke away to get some cereal before picking up Mom for swimming. It was a good workout but afterwards I felt a little nauseated. I wanted nothing more than go home and go back to bed but, there were things at work that were time sensitive so I just kept going. On my way home from work I stopped in Wal-Mart to look for a pattern for a blessing outfit. Did I mention that? I am making two blessing outfits out of Sara’s wedding dress. Actually, it is Sara & her sister Melissa’s wedding dress and they both are having babies in November. Sara’s mom asked if I would make a female and male blessing outfits out of the dress. I am looking forward to the challenge. Unexpectedly I ran into Darlene Stotler at Wal-Mart. We visited a while than decided continue our visit over lunch. Macaroni Grill was handy so we found ourselves a cozy booth and enjoyed the meal. By the way, the grilled parmesan cheese chicken salad is excellent! Later that evening I opted for a light dinner of Cheerios, yogurt, & a plum.

Tuesday October 7, 2008 Phase Two Day 169:
Yes! I went to step class this morning. Now back at home, Sonnet stopped by to weigh in. We are both down half a pound. We continue to loose inches which makes us happy, happy, happy.

What should I have for breakfast?.......Oatmeal….Ummmmm that was good. First thing this morning the wedding dress went into the washing machine. I began perusing the patterns. I did break to pick up the music for Shannon’s funeral. Connie & I went through it. ‘Consider the Lilies’ is such a beautiful song. Not sure how I am going to make it through. When our ward choir sings it, I stand in front of them just waving my arms and choking up. The message of tender love that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have for us is so affectionately articulated in the lyric of that song. Add to that thoughts of beautiful Shannon and I will be struggling. I started praying for help the minute I got the call. You know what gives me strength – Shannon’s own singing. I remember when she sang at the temple fireside. It was a beautiful solo about eternal marriage. Here she is, barely able to breath at times and she just kept singing. Years ago, she had a recital for Maureen. Maureen announced that she had health conditions that caused her to cough at times. She said if that happens do not feel uncomfortable or worried, Shannon will continue as best she can. Well I never heard a cough or falter, she sang pure and clear. That is my prayer, to sing pure and clear.

Back at home, I began hacking into the wedding dress. It is fun creating a design. I ate kind of a lot for lunch. I had a slice of lasagna. Shannon Rock brought over a small pan of lasagna for Stephen’s B-day. It is ambrosia! I’m sure it is packed with fat because of all the cheese, but boy is it good. So, I had a slice of that and two – count them – two of the skinny cow ice cream bars. They are low in calorie and fat but still! The bad thing is I am going with Sonnet to meet Blake & Sara tonight at Chili’s. A salad will be good but they have that cool ice cream thing B&S always like to get….normally I would be up for it but Sonnet will be there so we will see.

What a great evening with the kids. We had a delicious dinner together. I had a Quesadilla Salad – very tasty. We all ended up having dessert (yea). I had a decadence brownie with walnuts, coconut & caramel topped with ice cream and chocolate syrup. Need I say more? Sonnet was good, she had salmon with steamed veggies and a small chocolate cream cake thing. It was small, in fact they are called ‘shots’, meaning they are served in shot glasses. We stayed at the restraint almost two hours enjoying one another’s company.

I'm falling apart!

Wednesday September 24, 2008 Phase Two Day 156:
Today is Sonnet’s birthday. Hooray!



We called to sing to her at 6:00am, as is our tradition, and made a date for dinner at Black Angus. I had Cheerios for breakfast and something I should not have had, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I went back to bed to read and ended up falling asleep until 11:15. I am so swollen and itchy today. For lunch, I put on Andy Griffith and ate tuna and crackers. Later I had popcorn. Tonight at Black Angus, I had steak salad. Stephen and Sonnets dinner came with mudd pie so I ordered one. It was wonderful. Mudd pie is made with Mocha ice cream, which Sonnet & Stephen did not like. You know what that means – Yes – I get all three. One I ate at the restaurant, the other two I took home. I have already had another but the last one is in the freezer for tomorrow. I did not plan this! However, life happens to me.

Sunday September 28, 2008 Phase Two Day 160:
Check out the date. I have really let my entries go. These shingles have left me tired and pretty much home bound the last part of the week. I usually watch TV, read and work on quilts for Taunie. I did go to the Relief Society stake enrichment and broadcast Saturday afternoon. It was wonderful. I have been eating a combination of good, bad and ugly. Most times regular good stuff like cereal and smoothies but I have sure let the veggies go. I have not had a salad since Wednesday. I have instead eaten some handy but carb-loaded alternatives such as peanut butter sandwiches and popcorn. These would not be too terrible on occasion, especially if I was maintaining my normal exercise schedule. This week however, I have not gone to step class once or swam since Monday. I have showed up for walking which is a good thing.

Today I am feeling and looking better. The swelling in my face is all but gone. I can still see two shingles marks but the blisters are gone. What is left just looks like scrapes. I think I will stay home from work until after my doctor’s appointment on Tuesday.

As far as eating today, I wasn’t feeling hungry this morning but made myself eat most of an apple before going to choir. At church I had some trail mix from Stephens stash in his desk drawer. Here at home I had a few bites of a steak Stephen cooked yesterday, one cracker with egg mix and a had full of almonds. Around 2:30, I am going to Cindy’s. Thanks to her generosity, we have a standing invitation and sometimes I pop in, but today she is having a little something special in honor of Sonnet’s b-day.

Cindy’s was nice. She served salad, green beans (Sonnet’s favorite) and lemon chicken with rice. We had lemon cake (another one of Sonnet’s favorites) with sherbet. It was very good. Later at home I had a yogurt. I was happy and satisfied and settled for the night when the doorbell rang. Sabotage! The Rasmussens’ brought over homemade doughnuts – I give up!

Tuesday September 30, 2008 Phase Two Day 162:
It is Tuesday night and here I am trying to remember what I ate yesterday. It has been so wonderful to be at home so much this last week. Shingles is not a fun reason to be home from work but I must admit even with the illness I have loved being home. I have quilted mostly. It sure has thrown off my schedule though. I do not get to the computer or this journal very much. I am kind of falling apart. Do not ask me why but I have bitten all my fingernails off – way off. I have not bitten in years. My eating is a mess and I haven’t been exercising because of the shingles. Today normally is weigh in day but Sonnet did not come by this morning. There is no way I am getting on the scale today – I have not worked out in over a week! Tomorrow I walk with friends then go swimming with my Mom. After that, I am back to work. I think that perhaps getting back to a schedule will help me get things together. I will have a good talk with Sonnet tomorrow night when we walk. I know she will whip me back into shape.